I've always been quite fascinated by people who seem maintain a deep interest in a subject over the long term. I have for a long time been self critical of my own inability to do so and have on occasion forced myself to maintain my involvement in X hobby at the detriment of my true interest in it.
Over the past 5 years I've been on a journey of self-discovery to re-learn what I know about myself with a non-critical eye. One of the quirks of my personality is my ever-shifting focus of interests, like a planet with an eccentric orbit, my focus passes close to the centre, intensively, for a brief period, before launching off into the oort cloud of frosty disinterest waiting for a long delayed return.
For example, just over 10 years ago now, I studied for my amateur radio exams. I found it very thrilling and learnt a lot. I was surrounded by people who had been involved in the hobby longer than I'd been alive and lived and breathed it every day, I wanted to be more like that but I now accept that I'm not like that. I do still engage in the hobby but my interest in it shifts, I might get deeply involved in building antennas or experimenting in HF for a couple of days/weeks/months, then as quickly as it comes, it's gone and I might not pick it up again for another year. I would feel bad about it, like I must be fooling myself, and sure enough it puts me off getting engaged in the community because I know that eventually I'll disappear, I'll be doing something else and I don't much think about it until I'm ready to return.
Last year was like this with retro computing, all summer I was deep into the whole scene and had a lot of fun. When I needed to move some furniture around at home I needed to put it all away and I've put my hobby on ice for a while. When it'll come back out, I don't know.
I've also noticed that in the 20 years or so I've been on social media, I go through periods of intense activity, posting, daily or more often, followed by months of silence, complete disinterest in getting involved again. If I hadn't enabled automatic-deletions I'd be curious to graph out my activity over time and see whether there is a regular cadance to this that I might use to learn something so I can predict in advance how long I've got until it's time to say goodbye.
This blog isn't immune to this quirk of my personality, I'll go through weeks of inspiration and post things, then it'll be so far from my mind as to not exist. I used to feel bad about this but I don't anymore, its just the way I am wired and it doesn't mean I'm not a blogger, a retro-computing enthusiast, a radio ham, but I'm probably not very active in some or all of those things at that moment and I'm at a point now where I'm OK with that.